2019 and Dating Expectations

Yep, doing the online dating thing again. Not sure what will come of this, but I might as well try and see what happens.

Hi, my name is Bryan. College graduate and full-time artist wannabe. I’m 22, currently residing in North Lauderdale, Florida. It’s 2019 and I’m looking to enter the dating world. I’ve been single for a few years now so I want to change that this year.

My interests include music, video games, and writing. I love the color blue and anything Spongebob-related (especially the first 3 seasons).

I’m a bit of an introvert, so it takes me a while to open up. But once I can trust you, I’m basically an open book for you to read.

What I’m looking for in a girl is nothing specific. Just be cool and honest and you’re essentially marriage material.

Anyways, enough about me. What about you? I’d love to get to know more about you if you’re interested.

Have a nice day and stay blessed.

Back in the Game

To the hypothetical woman that just read this brief profile, I hope you appreciate the satire.

But in all seriousness, I am getting back into dating in 2019. More specifically, online dating.

For all of 2018, I’ve avoided any dating apps and websites. It was a personal goal that I believe would help me interact with the women I knew in real life. And while that did help to some extent, I was still a single man in 2018.

Like a recovered athlete, it’s time to get back out to the field.

Contentment in a season of contempt

For a long time, I hated singleness. Even now, I sort of still do. Though not as much.

Being a young adult, it’s difficult to find contentment in singleness. I’ve seen friends get married, relationship statuses get changed, and families already getting started. And while I want to click the “Like” button and show my appreciation, I can’t help but feel contempt towards my current situation.

Why is it that other people can find their soulmate, and I can barely get a girl to respond to a text message? How do other people get to hold hands in public, yet all I get is a greeting and small talk? Though these complaints seem trivial, it was a reality that I had to deal with everyday. And all it takes is time for these complaints to compound into ill will for relationships as a whole.

2018 was a weird year in that I wasn’t as angry as I normally would be. Even when I was at a friend’s engagement party, I wasn’t jealous or anything. I enjoyed myself. I was happy for him and his future bride. It felt like I was a part of something bigger than just my desire to one day have a woman by my side.

I think having that experience of contentment marked a change in my viewpoint towards singleness. Although I’m ready to one day relinquish it, I know that I can’t pretend that it didn’t help me become the man that I am today.

Finding “The One”

But am I actually ready to date again? I’m not sure.

I’ve written about my struggles with romance at length before. In short, I’m not really good at it. However, I’ve been working through some of my trust issues with women and I’m at a point now where I’m willing to put myself out there again.

In the meantime, I’m working on becoming a better person. 2019 will be the year of progression. One area of my life that desperately needs it is the romantic section.

I’ve delayed it long enough for fear of my insecurities once again repeating history. And while I may repeat those same mistakes in the future, it’s worth the risk of getting outside of myself and realizing that it’s good to taste air again.

I don’t know if this will be the year when I finally bring someone home or I continue to remain alone in my room. Either way, dating profiles are being filled and compatibility percentages are being calculated. Whoever she is, know that I’m here.

And ready to mingle.

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