I Am Brother Humbled: “A Change in Identity”

The poem introduces the antithesis of Two Dope, Brother Humbled. This poem focuses on the character and thoughts of Brother Humbled.

After the plane crash, Two Dope “died.” In his place, we are introduced to a new character.

Similar to the first poem, this is an introduction in which the reader gets acclimated to who he is and what he stands for. Instead of being focused on himself, Brother Humbled turns his attention to God. But given the sudden transformation, there may be some traces of Two Dope still lurking inside.

I am Brother Humbled.
A former wolf with a healed heart.
Now part of a sheepfold, set apart from the world.

The tone of this poem is more reflective, as opposed to braggadocious. Being “a former wolf” refers to his past life as Two Dope. Not belonging to a specific group and believing that he is worthy of praise and admiration. Once his heart got healed, he gained membership to a group that is not of this world.

My room for growth could use some growing.
Lord knows I’m not divine.
I whine, cut of all lines of sight.
Turn a blind eye to all sources of light.
Then wonder if God exists.

Having a change in identity doesn’t remove the past. Brother Humbled is aware of this and it becomes the new central conflict for the remainder of the book. Even though he is Christian, he still has moments of doubt. It adds a more human element to the character, as opposed the cartoonish aspects of Two Dope.

Although I choose to acknowledge it,
it’s believing that makes the difference.

To be a Christian isn’t to just know the God exists, but to place your hope in that reality.

I like when life has meaning.
But not when the definition is meaningless.
And the synonyms just lead to death,
deadly weapons, diseases, and other malicious
forces I deal with.

Comparing life to a dictionary, looking for meaning is essential to human living. When there is no meaning, it leads to disenchantment and dissatisfaction. What’s the point in living if there’s no apparent meaning? And to add to the lack of meaning, there’s only death and suffering that affects everyone.

Brother Humbled is trying to reconcile this mystery with the greater hope that Christianity offers. Perhaps if there is a higher power that controls every aspect of our life, then life does have meaning after all.

It’s a dead wish or a death wish.
To want something that’s easier than this.

Life is difficult and humans cope through a variety of ways. But in the end, the comforts that we desire won’t last forever. It’s either a “dead wish” (not going to happen) or a “death wish” (you’ll eventually die trying to seek every form of pleasure that is available).

If the after life is the last resort,
then I’ll praise God until my last breath.
Praying in order to withstand times of temptation,
while living out every text inside the testaments.

One of the main aspects of Christianity is experiencing eternal life in paradise. Because the world is broken, Christians look to the Bible and see God’s promise of creating a new heaven and earth. Where there is no trace of sin and people can live in perfect harmony with each other and God.

Don’t do life alone.
Remember your King who gave his own.

The first verse talked about the “sheepfold” or the community of fellow believers. Because Christ died for those who accept Him in their lives, Christians are called to fellowship with other Christians.

Be the humbled, holy, wholesome sojourner
who unfolds scrolls of scriptures
while meditating on His love letters.

A sojourner is someone who stays at a place for a temporary time. Because life is temporary, Christians are considered sojourners on Earth. Their true home is Heaven. The bible is a collection of love letters from God to His children, offering wisdom and encouragement.

And proclaim good news to blind readers

The gospel of Christ has to be shared with those who have would never bother to read the Bible. This call to evangelism is a mission given by God and a standard that every  Christian needs to uphold.

I am the redeemed sinner.
I am the flawed saint.
I am the exalted servant.
I am the sanctified remnant.
I am God’s work in progress.
I am Brother Humbled.

These statements represent the reverent mindset of Brother Humbled as he comes to grips with his commitments as a Christian. Whether or not he will follow through remains to be seen. He’s still human and bound to mess up eventually. But with this new outlook on life, Brother Humbled now has to interact with the outside world. Will his Christian views connect with the values of the hedonistic culture? More specifically, within a college setting?


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